Missed Connections

On an average day, I check my personal email at least once (usually several times). After dinner I'll fire up the computer and check what messages await me. Usually there isn't much besides notices about happenings on Facebook but I still ensure that I don't miss a day; that is until yesterday and one skipped day ruined my life.

Okay, so it didn't ruin my life but it did ruin my week because I hate regrets (I try not to have them but my anti-confrontational, rejection avoiding personality ensures that I always do). I didn't check my email and because I didn't I missed an email from my Mr. Big saying he was going to be in town last minute for the day and that he would have time to get together if I was available.

We all know that even if I had appointments coming out of the ying-yang I would have found time but I never got the chance (and sadly wasn't busy at all) because I didn't check my email and didn't know he was here. So now I will always be wondering what if and driving myself crazy thinking about how long it will be till I'll have a chance to see him again.

It makes me a little sad about our society as well. No one picks up the phone anymore to make plans...every plan made now is email/Facebook/text facilitated. It is considered odd to actually call a friend and say "hey, what time do you want to meet?". If only Mr. Big had called then I wouldn't be feeling like such a wretch right now...does sending an email only mean he cared less to see me? I don't think he even has my current phone number and I don't have his anymore so our friendship only exists through cyberspace, which is a sad state of affairs.

I want to go back to the days where if wasn't so easy to communicate - you had to get the person's number, remember it, dial it, and hope they were home to answer the phone: no voicemail, no call waiting. Even better would to go back to my parent's day when people remembered your address so they could pop by to say hello.

Anytime you want Mr. Big, pop by. Oh how I wish he'd pop by!